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Alcohol issues

Discussion in 'Detoxing From Pain Meds' started by Catamount, Nov 11, 2014.

  1. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Hey All,

    Wish I was checking in with the board here to say to all that may remember me all is well, but I can not. Seems like after I kicked my pill habit I gradually turned alcohol into my new drug of choice. Tried to stop once a while back and do it on my own, did well for 2 months or so, and then thought, 1 drink will not hurt Mel now.....WRONG! Right back at it big time. All or nothing for me I suppose. Alcohol is every bit as bad as those darn pills.

    I know this may not be the proper place for this, but this forum was once of great help and support for me. So here I return, humbled and beaten down. Any words of wisdom, support of pointers to any forum similar to this greatly appreciated.

    FYI....Oct 31 was my last drink....I am now attending AA meetings. Gonna beat yet another monster.

  2. bolt

    bolt Well-Known Member

    Welcome Back!
    We addicts really have to be careful with booze. It is so socially accepted and there are so so many people addicted to it in denial omg...how it is legal is beyond me.wtf..
    cat good job on seeing your problem and taking action..If you beat the opiates the booze will be cake...try not to be so hard on yourself...I think of booze a lot and I have a full bottle of so co in my trunk for over a year.
    So don't feel like the lone ranger...keep fighting..rooting for you!
  3. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Hey Bolt....Thanks for the response. Very much appreciated. I am going to tackle this one differently than I did my pill addiction. I was anti AA, NA meetings then. Thought they would not be for me. So this time I am looking to the rooms and halls of AA to learn the tools I need to keep any and all addiction issues away. The meetings are a very eye opening experience. I would encourage anyone to at least give them a try. I fought going to them last time, and who knows, I may not be in the boat I am now if I had choose that route earlier. Lots of wisdom there.

    As long as the mods are good with this being here I will be checking in and updating regularly.

  4. sailormom

    sailormom Well-Known Member

    Addiction is addiction no matter what your doc is. AA meetings is a great way to go, my oldest son is on 5 months clean doing the 12 steps thru The Healing place. He was a worse drunk/alcoholic than my youngest was with drugs.
    Losing jobs, dui's, no place to live. He is living in homeless shelter right now working the program thru the healing place. He has about two months left. Its tough cause it is so socially acceptable everywhere and its a drug you dont have to sneak to use. But you can do it.
  5. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Sailor mom....yes indeed addiction is crazy no matter what you take. A addicts thinking is always the same no matter what. Just keep feeding the monster until it destroys us and all we love. I have hurt too many people and neglected too many things to this point. Time to right the ship not only for those I love, but even more important...for myself. I want to beat addiction once and for all for me, myself and I!

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  6. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Been hitting AA meetings every night. The stories you hear on a nightly basis are so eye opening. Just hearing that so many others have been where I was and have managed to get themselves clean for many years is very hopeful. Plus seeing many of them still there after 10, 20 and more years and giving back to others is nothing shy of awesome. So many people can not be wrong that this program will work for anyone that is willing to do the work to stay clean and sober. There are a mix of people at the meetings as well. Both drug addicts, alcoholics and those of us lucky enough to have been both. So I am now a bit over 2 weeks sober and feeling pretty good about where I am now, and my new approach to beating addiction once and for all.

  7. Bonita

    Bonita Well-Known Member

    Hey Cat,

    Yeah.... we addicts just love those mind altering substances. Ive not had a drink because I know my personality. I am all in with whatever I do. A drink may be a drink for a short time but then I start to love that fact that all I have to do is drink and life looks good again no matter whats really going on. I had to stop the pot for the same reason. Kept me in a state of not feeling whatever.

    Glad you caught yourself before you really had to pay the price for that choice.

    Hang in there. You know, I always like AA more then na, just safer for me and more of my age group. Most of all it hurt me to see kids slurring through the fog of sub thinking they were clean. Got off subject a bit but just glad your here
  8. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Bonita!!! Great to hear from you. Yup....kinda got myself in another corner to fight out of. I am allergic to alcohol and drugs. 1 drink is never enough. Off to the races after that until I forget everything on a daily basis. But thankfully I am now a tad over a month sober and feeling good. I love going to meetings and listening to others as well as sharing my story. Helps reinforce where I want to be. I want to be sober just like the others in the group. Thanks for stopping by and supporting me yet again. Hope this the last time as well.

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  9. Firsttimedetox

    Firsttimedetox Well-Known Member

    Hey Cat.

    I haven't been to this site for a few years but remember your name. I kicked a long oxy habit almost 5 years ago. I'm 4-1/2 years clean and sober, and very grateful ..

    Been having a bad couple days. Lots of worry and angst. Not for any real reason, maybe the time of year? Sitting on the sofa thinking feeling sorry for myself, remembering fondly and wishing there was a way to just turn it all off, the thinking.. You guys know what I mean ..

    I appreciate your post Cat. I don't plan on using Opiates again.. I don't want to use. Coming back here and reading some stories.. Brings it all back again.. Substance abuse .. jeesh..

    I slowed down meeting attendance lately. Go figure. I'm grateful for this thread.

    Gonna hit a meeting tomorrow night. Get back on track. Sliding off track is so slow and insidious. I came here kinda hurting.. wanting to be reminded and I was .. Thanks ..
  10. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Hey FT....I remember you as well. Yes long time no see. I lurked around here on occasion after I beat my pain pill addiction. Was darn happy to put that behind me for sure. But seems another addiction quickly took it's place. Bummer I fell into another trap....should have known better. But for now, alcohol is behind me. Picked up my 1 month sober chip lat night at the AA meeting. Very good feeling.

    As for the meetings...many echo your sentiment of when they miss a meeting the feel some sort of discontent, or feeling of being drawn back in. We need the meetings to keep us in the right frame of mind. As I mentioned before I was dead set against attending these meeting before....but after I went to my first meeting I found out that is where I need to be, what I need to hear. Even if you go just a few times a week, hearing and sharing is of so much help.

    I am sober yet another day.....hope to make it to midnight tonight to be able to put another day behind me. One day at a time adds up pretty quickly.

    All my best,

  11. spring

    spring Administrator

    Hey Cat, I see that you're online (that little button by your name is green). I hope everything is going well for you. A belated congrats on that month!

    I love hearing what you have to say about the meetings. A lot of people cheat themselves out of a recovery because they wont even consider the fact that those 12 steps could be the way out.

    It may not be for everyone, but ya never know until you give it a good try.

    Anyway, keep hanging in there Cat. :smile:

    A thread that may be helpful
  12. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Hey Spring....I picked up a sponsor the other week and am just beginning to work on the 12 steps. I am very excited to be starting the work of the program.
    I am certain many fear the meetings for the same reasons I did.

    Number 1 was not into hanging around with strangers and sharing my feelings with them. Although this may be true, when I went to my first meeting I could not believe how many people were exactly like me, have the same feelings, same struggles, same issues and on and on.
    We addicts are not alone in this fight. And what a better person to help an addict, but a fellow addict that has been there, done that. Drug of choice does not matter, just fill in the blanks and it fits.

    My number 2 or other struggle is the GOD thing. This was a biggie for me. Not a fan of having religion thrust at me....but that is truly not the case. Yes there is a frequent mention of God mind you, but also the reference to a Higher Power as one in the same as GOD. Whatever you choose that higher power to be is where you can go with it. Nature, the ocean, the Stars whatever you want it to be and what works for you.

    To anyone struggling, give it a shot, you have nothing to lose, and everything to gain. Also do not necessarily make a judgement on your first meeting. It could be good, it could be not so good, depending on the day or the group.
    Give several different meetings a try. Each one has its own vibe. Pick the one, or ones that work for you. I hit a different meeting each day of the week. Always benefit from each group's approach and all the different views you get exposed to.

    I will get off my soap box for now, for me right now, this IS WORKING!

    Keeping it clean, 24 hours at a time!

  13. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Well it is the Christmas season and it appears Silent Night is appropriate for the action here on the forum?

    All is going very well for me and still very much sober and doing well. January 1st will mark my 2 months without a drink, and of that I am very proud. Still hitting a meeting each day.

    24 hours at a time, winning the battle.

  14. Firsttimedetox

    Firsttimedetox Well-Known Member

    Congrats much Catamount ..

    You got this .. I can feel it ..
  15. Fox face

    Fox face Moderator

    Congrats Cat! What a great feeling it is to not be controlled by a substance! Happy Holidays
  16. spring

    spring Administrator

    YEAAAAA!!! Yes you got this! and you deserve it! Love love love this kind of news!
  17. Catamount

    Catamount Well-Known Member

    Greetings ODR! Well I recently got my 6 month chip at AA and could not be happier. Hit as many meetings each week as I can. I would say at least 5 and many of the people there have become good friends. It is very good listening to all the stories and thoughts shared at each meeting. It is every bit as interesting to listen to a new comers story as it is the old timers. So I am still kicking, feeling great and loving life. So glad winter is over and looking ahead to the sunshine and days at the beach. Also to anyone new, struggling, coming back...best of luck to you....give AA, NA a chance. It can be the best thing that could happen to you if you give it a chance. That one meeting could change your life forever. Just need to do it....One day at a time.

  18. Bonita

    Bonita Well-Known Member

    CONGRATS Cat!!!!!!!

    Yeah, life is good when we are no longer dependent. Good to hear from you.
  19. sailormom

    sailormom Well-Known Member

    Congrats to you, I know it is a tuff struggle since alcohol is so common and acceptable at all social events and occasions. My oldest son will get his 1 year chip June 3. I have his collection of chips that he has acquired over the past 11 months.
    Keep up the good job
  20. teatreeoil007

    teatreeoil007 New Member

    You are not alone. Very common to turn to another substance. But the goal is to be clean and sober from all substances. Alcohol is readily available and widely accepted and easy to get, legal, affordable.

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