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Life after slow suboxone taper

Discussion in 'Detoxing From Buprenorphine/Subutex/Suboxone' started by K.Nicole, Aug 10, 2017.

  1. K.Nicole

    K.Nicole New Member

    I started using suboxone 1 year ago to help me get my life back on track and get off of methadone. I was on methadone maintenance for about a year before i started the suboxone to get off of heroin. I started using heroin after a perc habit got to expensive and hard to find, this was all on and off for about 4 years. So in total I have been using some sort of opiate/opiod for about 5-6 years. I am now 24.

    The methadone worked and i started tapering almost immediatley, but i started to realize i wasn't myself still and i felt i was getting high. Also having to go in everyday and the kind of people that were there at the clinic to get their dose everyday made me realize it wasn't for me or what i wanted. To me, it is honestly a legal heroin, it got me high and the detox i had to go through to get on the suboxone for 48-72 hours (I was only on 3mg) was pure hell

    After getting on the suboxone and finding a dose that was right for me, (way lower than what the dr wanted me to be on), i started tapering. I have been slowly tapering for a year. I got into college, i was working and my life is back on track. I am now also expecting a baby girl in 2 months! So life is good. But, im not sure what im experiencing now. Im almost 2 weeks into no suboxone, no nothing. It feels so good to know i am finally free from being dependent on drugs, i have been working so hard to get here, but i feel SO TIRED. Also feel dizzy and like im in a dream. Its physically hard to even lift and arm, I don't feel "happy" generally and can't get excited over things, i think im confused on how i am suppose to feel being on nothing. Since i can't work because of my pregnancy (it was a physical job), im home alot and quite bored, my classes just ended and i have no motivation to go anywhere or do much. Maybe i am overthinking it. I tapered to a micro-dose, i took the dose so low that i was eventually taking a crumb, because i am pregnant i had to avoid alot of WD's. So I didnt jump from a high dose.

    Will i get over this? I'm not sure if this is something most experience or if this is just me i guess. Its been so long like i said im not sure how i should feel and think. Im so scared to be depressed after i have the baby, I try to think everything will be ok, but its like time is going by SO SLOW now and its quite boring. Normally i would be able to relax at home and be ok but being at home its like the days last forever and i feel so empty and bored. Any info from those who have been through a successful suboxone taper or even any opiate taper is very much appreciated.
     
  2. Fox face

    Fox face Moderator

    Welcome to ODR! Congrats on getting your life back!! I'd say what your feeling is very normal. I can say if your 2 weeks out, things will only get better from here on out! I'll have to check back after I get off work.

    Congrats on your little one too!

    Fox
     

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