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Top 10 Ways to Determine If You're a Dope Fiend

Discussion in 'The Lighter Side of Recovery' started by JaH, Aug 25, 2004.

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  1. parallax

    parallax Well-Known Member

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica]a few more, from the days when i was staying with various friends who didn't know i was using, so i had to get creative:
    1. you know every bathroom within a one mile radius from where you used to score.
    2. the bathrooms in that area that are individual locked rooms, are like gold to you.
    3. in multi person bathrooms with just the thin divider between you and the person in the next stall, you've perfected this manuever: coughing at the exact second you light the lighter, to mask the sound.
    4. you've also mastered the art of balancing a spoon, little water bottle, heroin bag, cottons, and needle on the top of the toilet paper dispenser.
    5. shooting up in public bathrooms used to make you so nervous, you'd shake so much you could barely hold the spoon steady, and your heart was beating too fast to even feel the rush -- but now you could do it in your sleep.

    and finally... your friendster profile, under occupation, says "junkie" http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=5720624

    heh heh...
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  2. JaH

    JaH Well-Known Member

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica]Jeez, parallax, just reading your last post made we want to use again -- especially knowing you're in the same city as me and could help me score.

    Oh God, I need a vacation.
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  3. spring

    spring Administrator

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica]Who else would stand on a street corner or sit in a parked car waiting and waiting for some dealer who is 30 minutes late, an hour late.....and then get excited and smile when he finally shows up.

    Parallax, I know that public bathroom scene all too well.

    sick I say....
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  4. parallax

    parallax Well-Known Member

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica]spring, that's funny... i thought there might be other people who shot up in public bathrooms, but i've never seen any evidence of it or talked to anyone else who'd done it so i felt like i was the only one. it's astounding the skills we can learn so fast out of pure "necessity" ha ha.

    i'd hang my jacket or sweater on the door so it covered the gap in the stall, so no one could see in.. but my ultimate stealth technique was to stand with my feet exactly where they'd be if i were sitting on the toilet, the whole time i was cooking the dope and everything else -- so if someone looked under the stall, it would look like i was just sitting there.

    no one would ever suspect... i look innocent...

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  5. jsb33

    jsb33 Well-Known Member

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica]Hi parallax
    I've learned over the past several weeks that no matter how bizarre we think our behavior, how sad or desperate it seems to us.. there is undoubtedly 1 or 1000 or 10000 others out there who have done the same! We may never hear about them or meet them or read it. That's why it was so comforting to me when I found this board and hooked up with a fellow Stadol user. I didn't think anyone else was possible as bizarre as me and abusing Stadol? Stadol? How retarded am I! But I found this, though the board it entitled heroin-detox and I found my way here through a search on subutex. And I learned! And read! And I found out that top people in the government have illegally purchased and abused Stadol. And I formed a relationship (email, but relationship nonetheless) with a fellow Stadol abuser, and found out through our email interactions we both did the same funny (but not funny) off the wall seemingly unique behaviors. No point in even describing them all, just saying the fact I know you'll get it! Oh it was sooo great. I'm glad you found the same. It is so sad for us all to be in this situation, but such comfort is found here, you know, "security in numbers."
    Uh oh, wait, now I've taken this thread in a different direction. I'm so sorry!
    Let's see if I can think of another funny to add to the list.
    Nope, I can't, I'm tapped. Oh but I just remembered something when re-reading all your bathroom antics. My DOC, Stadol, is a nasal spray, which I also often snuck off to public bathrooms to use while out with friends or family. Since it requires sniffing, I figured it would appear to fellow bathroom users that I was doing something else (i.e. coke) not that my drug is any better. So I too mastered a form of coughing then flushing at the exact moment I was sniffing, flushing again a few minutes later when the runny nose began so I could sniffle some more. And if I was at home, I'd go to the kitchen or bathroom, whichever was further from my husband, and run the water under the illusion of washing my hands.
    Interesting I just thought of that!
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  6. parallax

    parallax Well-Known Member

    [FONT=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica] that's great, jsb... i love hearing people's strange tricks they learned to conceal from friends and/or people in the next stall.
    i have just ONE more thing to add and then i'm off this subject...

    with the "couging and lighting" thing, it took me a few tries to learn to turn my head when i coughed.

    (yep, just like...)

    here's why: you're holding the spoon with heroin + water in one hand, lighter in the other.. if you cough in this position, guess what happens. yep, you blow all your precious drug water out of the spoon and onto the floor (which leads to another strange activity, trying to soak up this water with your little cottons, which are meant to filter out impurities, not soak up stuff off the dirty floor!) after a few times like that, i learned to turn my head to one side to avoid this mess. god, i'm like a trained monkey.

    actually, i often felt like a trained monkey or lab rat, in some experiment.. we'll see how many times per day becky will self-administer heroin before she removes herself from the experiment or dies...
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  7. NAagain

    NAagain New Member

    Re: my fourth attempt at sobriety, pathetic i think.

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